i have worked for over 35 years in the corporate world, holding many different leadership positions, and operated significant portions of the business for the company. i negotiated, on behalf of the company, deals that were in serious trouble, and would have high financial impact to the bottom line. i travelled for work into nearly 50 countries, lived and worked in locations like Frankfurt, Amsterdam, Oslo, Tokyo, Dubai,… . Sometimes 3 countries in a day; jetlag was my normal feeling. Fast-paced decisions, day in, day out, coping with stress, pleasing clients, dealing with peoples issues, being flexible 24/7, expecting the unexpected, dealing with cultural differences, achieving my objectives, …. and i can go on and on. i had little issues with all these facets, stress was my drug, i was seen as very dominant and decisive. Vacation would be sheer horror; absence of stress would make me sick the first 2 or 3 days of every vacation.
Surprisingly, i am a natural slave inside. The thoughts of being a slave started already in my early 20s. Sometimes it was so strong that i thought i must be a reincarnation of a slave from the past, under the reign of a Queen or Mistress – i feel it too strong at times. i oppressed and blocked the slave in me in favor of my work. i would be seen as weak, incapable, indecisive, a big “no no” to show the slightest sign in the business world.
A few months ago, i left the corporate world. My time had come, i had a good run, i am happy, time to pass on the baton to younger talent. It’s the right thing to do. And then came a call from Divine Miss Rosa – “DSF has reopened again,” She said. My heart started pounding, what a coincidence! Before i knew it, my slave broke out of his box and said, “was that Divine Miss Rosa?” before i could say anything my slave was already at the front door with his backpack “Adios company man, i am going home!”.
Who am i as a slave?
As a slave, i find inner peace in serving a community of Divine Dominants. i find freedom in being relieved from decision making and relying fully, and unconditionally, on the decisions made by the Divine. i find joy in providing excellent service to every single Divine, based on Her wishes, and Her expectations; They all deserve the best of me. Helping brothers and sisters in providing excellent service or sharing the punishment if one would fail, we all failed. Being helpful and pleasing to guests so it does not reflect badly on the Divine.
Serving under very high protocol, being always mindful, attentive, striving for perfection, being made transparent, and having no more secrets, following the rules to the letter, the comma, and the dot, provides me with a mental state of fulfillment and joy that is lasting, and that i have suppressed all these years.
Am i there yet? No, but i am trying, i am trying real hard to serve what the Divine deserve — ie. sheer excellence!
Proudly written by slave Talis for, and as ordered by, Divine Queen Bitch Tanarra.
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